A New Way to Be Human

It’s true. I feel like a totally new person. Well. Not totally new. Let me put it this way. You know when your car gets really dirty and there’s mud everywhere and you’ve had your windshield wipers on so long that they’re now starting to streak the mud across the glass, making you blind on the highway and afraid that you’re going to hit another person in front of you? (Or is that just me…) Well for a while, I’ve felt like that car. Like there was a bunch of goopy crap hanging all over me and – yeah my vision of what was happening in my world was extremely skewed.

The good news is I’ve gotten a car wash. With a power washer. And I’ve been given a new pair of wipers… (um… yeah… just go with it.)

Enough with the cheesy analogies. It’s true I’ve had some major perspective shifting the last couple of months. And as usual, there’s been some difficulty in changing. However, it’s been good. It really has been. My ego is bruised and I’ve been humbled in many ways (probably not enough, but I know that He’ll take care of that eventually). The changes might not be noticeable to people in my world, but I know they’re there.

But there are some things that have changed and they are so weird to me, I just have to share them. Prepare to be blown away.

1. I’m watching Sci-Fi.

Okay – let me clarify. Not a TON of Sci-Fi. But a whole heck of a lot more than I was watching. I mean, I’ve blown through 5 seasons of Doctor Who. If you haven’t seen this amazing series, watch it. Yeah it’s a lot of aliens and weird people with giant heads and in a couple of episodes ‘darleks’ that actually looks an awful lot like R2D2 from Star Wars. I digress. You could start all the way back in the 60’s. However I recommend starting with when they revamped the series in 2005 with Christopher Eccleston. David Tennant and Matt Smith are the subsequent Doctors and I will tell you… I *heart* David Tennant.

David Tennant, Doctor Who

 2. I’m back to reading again

Okay this is not as weird as it sounds. But if you know me at all, you’ll know I love to read. And I like to read a lot of things at the same time. However for a couple years it was hard for me. I don’t know why. I couldn’t get drawn into plot lines, I hated the characters of most things I read and I was just generally disillusioned with the stuff I was coming into contact with. Then I joined a book club. And we started tackling classics. BritLit classics, American classics, Pulitzer prize winners etc. While I haven’t loved everything, reading really well written books has made me fall in love again. I’ve been flexing my analytical thinking muscles and I’ve been exposed to some very fun things. A few that I recommend: A Confederacy of Dunces by John Kennedy Toole, The Hunchback of Nortre Dame by Victor Hugo (a bit wordy and descriptive the first 50 pages, but worth persevering through. Gorgeous story.), Matilda by Roald Dahl (one of my fave authors as a child).

3. I’m doing crazy things on a whim!

Granted, if you talk to anyone in my family, one of the words they’d use to describe me is impulsive. I’ll take a chance at doing something crazy – most of the time. But the craziness has moved to a bigger scale. On a whim, a friend and I decided to go to NYC. Okay so it was initially to watch a movie (#dontjudge) but it turned into a whirlwind tour of the city that never sleeps. And we planned it in about a month. Just decided to do it. And actually did it. I’m going to Vegas in a month. Just cause I can. I’m meeting people, having conversations with random strangers and feeling a bit richer over all for the experience.

Lady Liberty at Sunset (b&w treatment through Vingette app on an Android Phone)

So while these 3 things may not be way out of the box, they’re leading to things that are. I feel like I’m getting a larger look at life. What’s really important. Knowing when to laugh at myself and my circumstances and when to be serious and get upset. I kind of feel like a kid again, in the best ways. I feel free.

What about my peeps? What are ways you’re breaking out of ‘normal’ and making life exciting? How have you managed through dry times? I wanna know!

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.